TL;CR MEME

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TL;CR MEME

1. Comment with your character.
2. Receive comments from others.
3. Reply to their comments with long ballads and explanations of your characters' relationship throughout the game.
4. Suffer as we have suffered over your CR.

Comments

[shixiong]

Hm. okay. WELL.

starting on week one!!! i'm really glad we had such a good, soft thread to get us to where we ended up because yy was pretty instantly fond of wn. isn't that unfortunate. aside from the fact that they're from similar circumstances and time periods, he started off curious about his condition and then eventually, wanted to help him. his offer to take him to ghost city was a real one, and if he'd stop being such a fcking coward i'm sure he'd still do it. by the end of that thread he'd resolved to, and figured if he brought him and also wq's ashes, maybe HC could take care of it and they could see wen qing again! wouldn't that be nice!!

and then. MURDER HAPPENED.

SO those feelings rapidly turned into absolutely soul crushing guilt. i mentioned in our thread how much the entire thing reminded him of yizhen, which was the absolute worst thing that had ever happened to him, and it happened because he was weak then and lost his temper at the Worst Possible Time. he spent the entire day of the trial wondering if that just happened again, that he was so weak somebody took control of him this time and this time it ended in REAL MURDER. when i was threading with neena and she asked him about the ashes, i was 1000000% sure i was going to get caught, because it felt like taking care of wq's ashes was like, all he could still do. not even as redemption (because he didn't deserve that) but just like, it's the only thing to do. he kept wq's ashes on his person the entire rest of the time at the island, and protected wn's that he collected for the rest of the week so he could make sure his soul wasn't destroyed.... because he sure was the one to destroy his body. he'd offered wn a bit of hope and then like fucking murdered him not of his own volition 24 hours later what the fuck

side note if he would have seen him as a ghost he probably would have run a little less than he is in our thread rn but if only because tht was like, an inevitability. he knew that was going to happen if he protected his ashes... he would've just expected ghost wn to fucking murder him back which he really would have deserved and wouldn't have even tried to fight back.

and now it's over and we somehow achieved golden end, so wn is back. of course, he's glad, but that doesn't change the fact that he fckin KILLED HIM ANYWAY, so he feels soooooOOooo guilty and horrific that he's trying to avoid him as much as possible. he kind of hoped that maybe wn didnt remember it either? but of course he did! and now they're talking ("talking") about it and he just wishes that wn would kill him instead because this is now the SECOND TIME that he's caused murder (the first time didn't end in death because qyz was a god but god it was close) and THE PERSON WHO HE MURDERED ALMOST NOT ONLY FORGAVE HIM BUT WAS GLAD TO SEE HIM AFTER? WTF, STOP!!! it does not help because he's even more of a piece of shit for causing it to happen to such a good person. he himself is not a good person. he is a terrible garbage horrible person. when he told yizhen to kill himself it was out of years and years of anger at him, and this required no anger at all. he had absolutely no ill will towards wen ning and STILL was so weak that he DID IT ANYWAY. look at this perfectly nice zombie he attacked for no good reason!! he's the fucking scum of the earth!!!!!!! to say he's so unbelievably sorry doesn't even put it into proper words!!!!!!!!!

anyway he's like 50% freaked out he's going to do it again somehow and 50% unsure what to do with all of the feelings that are mostly just CRUSHING, AGONIZING GUILT, which is why he's trying to run fastly in the opposite direction.